I’m sleeping a lot at the moment, even for me and I love a good nights slumber, afternoon nap and eyes closed in the car kinda journey, obviously I’m not driving! I used to think it was because I wasn’t looking after myself properly and maybe from time to time this was true, in the last few weeks I know it’s because I’m looking after myself so accurately my body and mind are on heal, grow and master overdrive. Every second of sleep I have enables me to wake up noticing a difference in my thinking, feeling and own being. I’m listening to what my body needs, my diet has changed it’s simpler, I can’t deny it’s more protein filled, but I need less, little and often appears to be keeping me more grounded, connected, plugged into my environment. I feel a little bit like a stray cat who has found a really great owner and day by day I’m a bit more groomed and glossy.
My dreams are off the chart, beloved Mr S told me this morning I was in full conversation last night, talking as ever about getting organized, nothing changes! I take this as an amazing sign of my mind, conscious and unconscious being aligned. I’m not processing old shit, I’m in the now, working out how to do things with care for me and for the folks I’m blessed to work with.
I’ve shifted, my favourite overused word this year, my thinking, values and standards and in being brave facing the ,at times potentially crushing and overwhelming responsibility of what I’m truly capable of, my life is blossoming. This puts me on the path of others who are also blossoming and it seems to be deflecting those who are not.
It’s an interesting time for all, this week there seems to be discourse, panic at times and worry for some, I want to say to you all chill out. Make the decision you need to make, be honest about what you want and go for it. I’m going lay it out for you, stress is the place you are trapped in when you will not make a decision. I’ll say it again, stress is the place you are trapped in when you WILL NOT make a decision. This isn’t a time to argue right and wrong decision making, as each choice will always take us somewhere, the trick is to make the choice in the first place. Can you imagine spending the rest of your life rotating at the world’s largest crossroads? Hell to the no! We want progress, adventure, positive lives, not gut wrenching personal anarchy created from a mixed message of staying still and digging deeper into our self hatred as sure this is waaaaay better than being out there in the world, listening, living and loving.
I’ve coached and worked with countless wonderful clients this year and seen the same patterns repeat over and over; indecision, personal attacks, self-sabotage, denial that this is happening, then anger and running away as people and their foibles are finally seen. I’ve got more news for you, I see you either way, all of you and you’re absolutely right it can be one of two things, petrifyingly disconcerting, or hallelujah a welcome relief to be recognized. Don’t you want to be seen in all your potential and glory? Don’t you want to live the life you were born to? From the moment your parents held you in their arms they imagined the most incredible world for you, they didn’t imagine a dark room in which you hid yourself, your talents and gifts from the world. So step up people, eat well, sleep when you need it and above all make decisions god damn it, I say this to you as much as I say it to myself. As any writer will tell you, we write what we need to read and I guess I’m making decisions awake and in my dreams. It’s your choice to be free and easy, or stressed and stuck. Choose wisely as the time will come when your beaming love, or darkly lonely.
If I see you at a cross roads I will holler hello and ask where you’re at on your journey. In this question I’m giving you the opportunity to move on, take it, otherwise the centre of the cross roads is home for you, indecision lane is your town and self sabotage your postcode. Big Your Brave today, ask yourself what you truly want, write it down, give it to the universe and take at least one step towards it. Allow the world to create opportunities with and for you, it’s way better than the life feeling like things are being done to you.
Love yourself the way you love others and watch a world of love grow all around you.